i HOPE THIS WORKS

Hey so I'ts almost the weekend and I am pumped. Not that I don't enjoy babysitting but I really enjoy the weekend. Me and Kelly are going to an auction in Blaine Lake so that should be fun. We will probably end up taking home a whole bunch of junk. Oh well. So lately I've been thinking how does a person lose their passion. Can you really lose it. Can it be changed or misinterpreted. Does anyone really know what their passion is. Or do we live on the spur of the moment and whatever comes our way we do? Also why is it when something hits us like a cannon ball do we just give up and except it? What if we stood up shook the dust off and carried on? Would our lives be the same or would they turn out the way they are now because eventually we would mess up?
Why is it that when we lose people in our lives that we fall and can't get up? Why do we get depressed? Why does it seem like life is not worth living? And on the other side of it all why when we know that they are in heaven we can rejoice and live our lives normally, but we must remember their death every year. Are we supposed to celebrate the dead? The reason I talk about this is because my good friend Jordan who I attended ywam with died a year ago on feb 27 along with his sister and his newly fiance. Did I struggle with it yes. But I was reassured becuase I knew he was in heaven so therefore i was able to rejoice. Now my friend Mel she struggled more than I did, I believe she still does. So why is it that I don't and she does? Didn't God grant her reassurance that she would see him again in heaven? Why do we have to lose loved ones without being able so say good-bye to them? If you do not understand my writings thats alright because the brain is a very complex thing. Mine more than others.
God Bless

Hi everyone, so I still do not know how to do much but I can write. Me and Kelly have been doing well. Kelly just started his new job yesterday and its interesting to say the least. He works with non-christains who are very paganish. One young woman is a ex-stripper. So he needs lots of prayer. There are also porn magazines there in the lunch room. It is definitely a new mission for him. We do believe God has a plan for him there but it will be a interesting experience for him. I am doing good, my days are mostly boring. Ive been seeking God in what his will for my life is and what my passion in life is. Other than that i dont really have much to say. I miss you all and wish I could visit with you. Well have a great day to all who read this. I did check out your blog carrie. you should put a picture of you up there. Once i figure out how then i will too.

i dont know what im doing

Hi everyone I've started up a blog so yeah once i figure out how to work it should be pretty cool. Until then have patience.